This tangled dwelling mess called LIFE

So I remember writing a song that came from nothing

Rythm of the unknown, crawling, consuming 

I forgot it was me who wrote that love poem about who? I don’t know

Drowned in the idea of love for a stranger

But now I write a song for someone who is real but absent

A lullaby of anticipation, hope, bliss, and sandness

why can’t I just write a song for another strager

Of utopian bliss, of summer fling, of love never-ending

Then at least I won’t need someone to hear it.

And now im stuck with words lingering at the tip of my tongue

And who knows these words might be about you

Just give me reasons for these words to come out

Until then, let me write a song for this harmless stranger.

I choose to believe in my choice than to rely in the nonexistent destiny

I  refuse to be mislead by fate and let my soul fall in the abyss

And so I make a choice Mr, I love you… I really do, the first time you made fun of me

That’s the time I refused the idea of falling

But instead I was caught up in your net of hidden truths and beautiful fallacies

Electrified by your stolen glances, fueling the desire to want you

And so I choose this one thing that will go against what was supposed to be everything

I choose to be hurt, be confused, be the person i dont want myself to be…be the person who’s in love with you

It’s like the wind brushing through your hair in a mundane morning, you seem unchanged but still, affected
A moment unnoticed behind a curtain of noise that absorbs all chaos and all pretenses
Serene paths to the unknown is where my soul is headed, eyes closed, only moments to remember
Keep still, hold no grudge, breathe in to the silence, love the feeling of nothing
For this nothingness that’s within reach, is the only certain feat in this vast absurdity
Break hatred, build tranquility, because in this quiet moment we find the worth of a mortal
Embraced by pain, kissed by failure, nothing can compare to the feeling of this temperament once freed from this sublime agony
I am a product of silence, therefore I keep the war of my story in hiding. Now I go to sleep.

A princess not in distress, but a majestic person who is more than just a pretty girl in dress
A countess born by fate, surrounded by men, isolated by prudence
A princess that would willingly crash the walls of her limits, the walls that keep her from experiencing life
A countess of few words, once spoken, it enlightens the whole of humanity
A princess that wouldn’t wake up from a deep slumber just because of a mere infatuated kiss
A countess considered 2nd to an able man, little did they know, she’s the inspiration of that man
A princess whose eyes wander among those living a normal life, a life if ordinary is equated to greatness
A countess with no intentions but to give love to her count, contempting the greatness of life just for her man
A princess that wouldn’t be forgotten no not because of a tiara but because of the power not consumed
A countess, filled of longing and dissapointment, trying to get away from this madness, smiling, in search of the light

1. I am not another stranger

You see I’m no psycho, not a fan

Of all days, I just wonder

Why you stood out when i scanned…

A sea of faces…

Now I’m inspired

I wanna know you 

I wanna explore you—

Deep down inside of you, who are you?

Chorus:

Take me to your boulevard

Take me to your world

Let me just say that,

I am keen to know you

keen to say

That in a sea of faces

You are a stranger i would talk to

2. I am not an observer

I want to say hi, I wish I can

Of all the possibilities

Would you really see me here

In a sea of faces…

 Will you talk to me? 

I’ll listen oohh..

Your perfect voice..

Will you call my name? 

Just once..oohh you just took my heart away (chorus)

Bridge:

So would you give me time? 

I’ll prove to you im the one

The one you need

The one you ever wanted

So…will you talk to me? 

I’ll listen oohh..

Your perfect voice..

Will you call my name? 

Just once..oohh you just took my heart away

I can see that blinding light from the inside, that sight alone makes me sweaty

My mind is consumed by this heat, and my consciousness is melting

Dripping sore from my face, producing friction that is throbbing

I try to push productivity, but I perspire so I idle just like that

Yes i am idle, but it feels like i’ve been working out for days

And the heat gives me the reason to just stop and melt away like an ice cream

That heat could be compensated by a god-like being infront of me..but no…its just the sun

So i end this poem with tears rolling down my face, oh no, im only perspiring, wtf.

When you receive a call from a company, it is actually the same…

The same when you receive a call from a friend that you’ve been set up with a date…

You prepare for this corporate day, slacks, crisp polo, and stilettos maybe?

Thinking, is my dress too tight? Will it send a wrong impression? Will it work out? 

 Then comes the night before, and you feel you are not prepared to answer whatever

 Restless in bed, thinking about the possible outcome of that momentous instance

Then the moment comes, and you walk inside that intimidating building

Seeing that stranger’s face for the first time not knowing what could possibly happen

You see the interviewer from afar, and you smile cause that’s the natual instinct

You sit infront of him, with eager eyes, trying to decipher what he’s thinking

 Expect the first question directed to you by the company rep is ”tell me about yourself”

 You stare blankly, realizing that you don’t know much about the person you believed you’ve known forever, uttering nonsense instead

Then for some reason you cannot fathom, the conversation becomes natural as if it’s not a job interview at all

You’ve grown attached in some way, turning a blind eye to the time at hand

Then time is up, questions linger, did he or she like me, am I qualified enough?

 as i walk out from that same door i entered, i wonder when will i see him again, feeling the urge to get to know him better

 And after the whole process, you wait for that one phone call saying, ”you’re hired!”

 Just like waiting for his call…asking you for another date, like a 2nd chance to a possible love

 Cause you want this to end into a possible employee-employer relationship, the start of your career

Parallel to the idea that maybe, just maybe, that date will turn into a spark that will lead to a happy ever after between you and that beautiful stranger

that familiar beating on my chest…guys, that’s my heart

just an ordinary pounding by a conventional element which in time, is bound to last over the years

i whisper my longings to this extraordinary that gives only a beat as answer

the beating wont stop, but the answers are vague, leaving me hangin in thin air

and this heart grows old..its beating a second too slow..but i won’t give in

though this beating has left me consumed and drained, this heart of mine wont stop, til someone has devoured its whole purpose

this very essence of the human anatomy waits for the being that will make its beating a little too fast

too fast that i wouldnt be able to catch my breath, oh i would trade my soul for that being to rescue me

and then i smile cause i feel his heartbeat racing to the finish line with mine

gasping for that infinitesimal hope that will let my heart conitinue on beating…oh…my heart just died a little…

RIP dear heart

Topic suggested by Russ Ty Square

Bakit ang bawal, sarap yakapin at angkinin ng walang takot sa kanino man

 Ang humahadlang, ay lalong nakapangaakit, ang mga tumututol ay lalong sinusuway

 Ihantulad sa sinasabeng ‘streetfood’, isang dampi lang sa aking dila, ”asan nako, tila ako’y nasa paradiso?!?!!”

Maihahantulad din sa isaw na sa bawat dampi sa sukang maanghang, ay nagmimistulang droga na nagbibigay buhay at kiliti sa aking katawan, datapwat, unti-unti nitong sinisira ang sigla ng aking buhay

Lahat na lang bawal, sino kayo para ako’y pagbawalan, lahat tayo’y nilalang  na gusto lamang ng ngiti sa ating labi

Kasalalan ba para sa isang tao na may kagustuhang sumaya? kahit ito’y panandalian lamang? 

Diyos lamang ang makakasabi kung dapat na kong tumigil… basta’t walang nasasaktan, walang mali

Ngunit sa bawat suko sa aking bisyo, sa bawat sakit na nararanasan mula dito, ako’y nabubuhayan…gugustuhin kong ito’y walang katapusan

Pagkat sa lahat ng bawal, nabibigyan saysay ang buhay kong walang asim, walang alat

Sa bawat suway sa mundo, nakakamtan ang kaligayahang walang kapantayan.

Topic chosen by our guestwriter: True Love

A situation worth writing, that, my friends, is called true love

Behind this insensible facade, is a soul with a pen, trying to manifest what true love is

Counting the number of times i’ve been hurt, here i am bold enough to tell you why it has all been worth it

Details of yesterday,today, and the future… a brush of you subsides in every mundane moment

Ephemeral happiness is fading, what I have found is a timeless happiness, only experienced with you

Forever may sound cliche but at this very moment, i know that we are the epitome of it

Getting used to this is not problem… this drug is in my veins since day1

Hide, i need not…for i find liberation in you

 I effortlessly express the beautiful feelings you continuously shower my heart and soul with.

Just so you know, the day I met you, it’s a chronicle in my mind I always rewind

Killer, oh yeah that’s you…you killed my doubts, insecurities, and pessimism 

Loneliness is not a part of my life anymore, i feel your love even when you’re not beside me.

Maybe the wait in-between was long, but I am more than willing… I’ll be here

 Never did i imagine that i would feel this kind of love, its like a drug that i would be willing to take for the rest of my life

OH MY GOSH, i’m so inlove. i found you finally. you make me wanna say oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh my gosh.

”Please, please” I said before, now the moment sinks in, I’m with you now

Quest to find true love is long gone…God surprised me with just a snap

Random adventures are here to come, making memories we’ll soon tell our children and grandchildren

Shut up loneliness cause here and now, I am having the time of my life

Time will tell if this will be forever, but right now, time is our companion, and i am here to stay

Until when may be your question but i tell you now, this love that i feel for you can make me stay til my very last breath

Voice of our fate tells us don’t hold on too tight  cause none of us will be leaving

 Wandering this horizon of uncertainty is fine, as long as you’re with me

X marks this date in the calendar, this is when the world will see that true love still exists

You heard it friends, coming from the one with THE experience

Zany humor of the world seems ridiculous for the one in love, for they have found what everyone is looking for….TRUE LOVE.

 Zany humor of the world wouldn’t break us…we be like bonnie and clyde, we be rollin like there’s no tomorrow